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.:My bloody insanity so cry:.
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10th-Nov-2008 08:28 pm - NEW JOURNAL
tsui white
jyoujyou 

please add me again if you are interested ^-^

i finally got all the communities and stuff together at the other journal XD

so no stupid gazetto nick anymore *-*

bye bye ♥

10th-Nov-2008 07:04 pm(no subject)
tsui white
the people who read my journal must think i am really a person who is never happy XDD

I just looked over the entries and i just post here when i feel bad XDD

sorry everyone XDDDDDDDDD
7th-Nov-2008 06:15 pm - LOVE
tsui white
the beginning of love is
always like a baby.
very simple and beautiful.
No matter
how difficult and terrible
the love grows into.
5th-Nov-2008 08:43 pm(no subject)
tsui white
What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I / sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I / try to catch them red - handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can’t hold on / when I’m stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I’m lost within
I put on my daily façade but then
I just end up getting hurt again

by myself [myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself

[myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself

I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I
Turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on / then they’ll
Take from me ‘till everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer

[by myself]
[myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself
[myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself

I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

How do you think / I’ve lost so much
I’m so afraid / I’m out of touch
How do you expect / I will know what to do
When all I know / Is what you tell me to
Don’t you (know)
I can’t tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I can’t seem to convince myself (why)
I’m stuck on the outside

How do you think / I’ve lost so much
I’m so afraid / I’m out of touch
How do you expect / I will know what to do
When all I know / Is what you tell me to
Don’t you (know)
I can’t tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I can’t seem to convince myself (why)
I’m stuck on the outside

I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking...
4th-Nov-2008 04:33 am - chaos
tsui glubsch
seit anfang des jahres spielen mir meine gefühle einen wirklich miesen streich.

ich versuch sie so gut es geht zu unterdrücken,
doch es gibt keinen Tag mehr an dem ich keinen Schmerz fühle...

Mein Verstand prügelt schon heftig dagegen ein aber irgendwie bringt es nichts außer noch mehr chaos @_@
hach, das ist alles so furchtbar kompliziert T_T

ich habe das Ende der ganzen Misere perfekt geplant
und bis dahin werde ich durchhalten.
auch wenn es wirklich schwer und mein herz zerspringen wird .____.


(emo eintrag done, jetzt gehts mir besser ._.'')
22nd-Oct-2008 04:18 pm - again I have to tell~
tsui white
please come to my other sites, i only use livejournal for communities and stuff~

you can friend me at
yaplog : http://yaplog.jp/tsui
last.fm : http://www.lastfm.de/user/JyouJyou (it is my new one, i deleted the old)
myspace : www.myspace.com/youjyu
mixi : http://mixi.jp/show_friend.pl?id=16286398
animexx : http://animexx.onlinewelten.com/mitglieder/steckbrief.php?id=156001
emopunk : http://www.emopunk.net/Tsui
schülervz : http://www.schuelervz.net/Profile/96bf522ffde4e895/tid/102

msn : ask please
icq : 432612118
19th-Oct-2008 11:18 pm - und nochma *-*
tsui white
ihr geht mir alle auf den keks mit eurem liebes scheiß~

seit diesem jahr sind wirklich alle wie rollige katzen oder läufige hündinnen, alles was einen schwanz hat, auf ihn mit gebrüll~~

schlimm ô____o

hormontherapie maybe?

denn das ist ja nicht mehr zum aushalten.

isch will hier weg ;o;
4th-Oct-2008 01:05 am(no subject)
tsui white
I don't wanna be
(be without you, be without you)
I don't wanna live
(live without you, live without yo)
I dont wanna go
(go without you, go without you)
I don't wanna (be alone)

When we hooked up
We sat down
Made an agreement
We vowed that
That we'd always be together
Through whatever
We said that no one ever
Get between us
So love will never ever leave us
that was a while ago,oh
But now lately
It feels like
I mean I feel like
All we do is fight
Every single night
Can't make it tight
Can't get it right
I just wanna go back
Take it way back
All the way back
Can we start again?
Do it over?
Can we straighten' it out?
Can we work it out?


Do you realize
I can't sleep without you
Think without you
Eat without you
Speak without you
Be without you,I can't even breathe without you
I can't (feel without you), deal without you
(Spend without you)
My whole world is upside down
Don't wanna go out
Cause I can't ride without you
Feel like i'm goin' die without you
What is a girl supposed to do?
When I spend my last time to be in your life
I don't wanna be without you


I Dont Wanna Be
(be without you, be without you)
Said I cant live
(live without you, live without you)
I cant go
(go without you, go without you)
Said I dont wanna be alone
Said I cant be
(be without you, be without you)
Said I cant live
(live without you, live without you)
I dont wanna go
(go without you, go without you)
Said I dont wanna (be alone)


How can this be?
That it's not working out
(That it's not working out)
we vowed
(to be--always together)
It's hurting me
(hurting me)
That we don't talk no more
(It wasn't supposed to be this way
Where did we go wrong?
We both made mistakes
We gotta carry on)

Don't wanna be
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